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Matthew D Proctor

@MatthewDProctor

I was murdered. This isn't me. I was better than this.

I am dead. Stop thinking about me.


Kristin called you back, not me. She told you about my new gun. She told you I'd lost my mind.


You came to my apartment. You called. You saw your picture in the same spot but turned around. You were afraid for our lives.


You died. I died. We are dead. They killed you they killed me.


I wouldn't stop dealing. You were pissed, a fucking mess. I decided to move out. To you it meant breaking up. You put cat shit in my laundry


You squeezed my hand and said "Hey Matthew." I felt a tear slide out the corner of my eye and you started crying.


I was still sedated 5 days later. Mom was there. You came to visit. Mom said "Matthew look Robin is here." I couldn't focus my eyes.


I was sedated. The nurse told you I couldn't move or see but I could hear. You said you loved me and my folks were flying in. You went home.


They took me to ICU. You had stay in the waiting room from 1 to 2:25. You vomited up your sandwich. When it was allowed you came in crying.


You sat in the hall weeping. They tied my hands down because I was pulling my tubes out. You came back and saw me out of it and unruly.


You went outside to smoke. An officer said no smoking on hospital property and you screamed at him. They didn't let you back in the room.


I was just you and me. I had a seizure and vomited more charcoal. They made you leave the room. Then they put a stomach pump inside of me.


Charcoal was in my mouth and on my face and chest. I had trouble forming words. Kristin left. You cleaned the vomit off my face and chest.


Kristen called and told you she found me and took me to Piedmont Hospital. You rushed to the hospital angry and crying. I was in the ER.


When you got back to the apartment no one was home. I had put your sandwich in the fridge. You found it and sat down and ate.


I didn't tell you I had swallowed a bottle of Wellbruiton.


I needed to talk to you in person but you wanted to wait for Tina to get back. I told you I was washing your laundry. You stayed away.


You went to Wal-Mart and a thrift store. I called Tina's and told her mom I was looking for you. I called again and you were there.


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