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I've never ever lied about some of the evil that was done to me or made up stuff about it,I was never running any kind of smear campaign against anyone and I've only spoken the truth about it,I had a nice normal life once,now they got to my parents even more,this is getting crazy

Hate being branded as a narcissist,I don't have some of those traits,I've just been betrayed so badly by people,it's just theatre after theatre,I don't know how to fix this mess now,everyone's kind of gone hostile on me and won't level with me,I miss being a dad and a husband

Just want to go back in time before all this started,there was just no need for it,it's not just the govt,it's the deep state that's on my case for some reason,gosh man,why me,I was quite happy living in my delusion and was on my way to make amends,don't have deep historic issues

There's a few things I'm being accused of which I just do not have,all this materialism,jealousy and envy,I'm competing,neither am I malicious by intent,I just didn't have the insight at the time,I've been messed with so bad it's unbelievable,got fond memories of life till this

Emotional day,festive day,memories everywhere of what was once a family,where we sat to eat,the kids running around,have to stay grounded and remember who I was before all this madness started,I was bombarded psychologically for years and years in every way you can imagine

I'm a lot of things,one thing I've never been is competitive in anything,neither do I choose material things over what really matters to me,your not always going to have what you had and it's never bothered me in the slightest,neither do I get off on someone's suffering,it's sick

Can't believe my life is here, tomorrows supposed to be a festive day and I'll be spending it without my children,I've been disgraced and humiliated to everyone,and I've humiliated myself as well as all this for 7years has messed me up so bad,left me so confused and traumatised

Guess I was the bad guy but not to the extremes it's being made out,my psychology is so messed up when pitched into this,I'm feeling at my normal level now,everyone's played me it seems,wish I could just have an honest heart to heart when I'm just normal,miss the kids,hard

Somewhat of an escape to some normality,lot to reflect on,the ones that were kind of there I shunted,despite all this madness I've been under for 7 years my mum still tried to help in her own way,messed up bigtime,I just don't like this layer stuff,feel like a bad person now!

I feel like people have died on me,I'm mourning the losses,that's not easy to get over,I don't know how people can be so cruel to me,not just playing the victim,some really bad shit has happened to me,and all I wanted in the end was this dream life with my family

I've been sold as a narcissist but I don't have some of those traits,they are missing,I'm not perfect but I'm not bad either,when will my life be back to where it should be,I really miss having my family,let alone everything else I been through,why have they done this to me?

Kids went back today,back to my shitty existence,I didn't even get to have a single evening meal with them alone as they arranged,they control my entire life,why are people so mean just because I've reacted to crazy stuff in my life,I been through the depths of hell and back

My 2 children go back today, wishing my daughter came as well,doesn't even feel like I spent much time with them,it's such a cruel,cruel world!!!Why was this done to my life,on top I'm isolated and working on my parents yet again

My 2 kids are here and they have arranged for them not to even spend one evening alone with them for a meal,I want them to enjoy playing but this is all being orchestrated using my own family members,all because they made me out to be some user and god knows what other evil

I've never ever lied about what was done to me,I never made stuff up like that to smear someone like what was done to me,I'm so split emotionally,I miss my life,my 2 out of 3 children are here for a few days,brings a bit of warmth to the heart,missing my other one wish she came

So much has happened in the last 7 years,so,so much,is it wrong for me to be upset at people for letting this happen,I'm so mixed up emotionally because of this double layer crap,looking forward to a day with the children on the bright side,one missing,don't know how it got here!

Daughter couldn't come she said she was busy with school stuff,I'm missing her,doesn't feel complete,been through so much heartache that you couldn't even begin to imagine,really didn't ask for much in life! How did I even become the villain in all this,my babies are here least

Mixed up emotions,feel like I've been split into two emotions wise,on one hand she was my wife that I loved and feel like shit for it and on the other all this psyops shit that really messed my head up,can anyone relate?They worked on me for 5years straight,imagine the pain

Took my wedding photos,still have some,they don't understand that it's not easy to just lose someone you spent and built a life with and who you considered your other half+ 3 kids,no matter what's happened on this human chessboard and I'm to blame too for reacting to this psyops