nix recovery era
@rumoredpurpose
cause iโm just a mid-20โs dirtbag baby โข tw: ed โข 28 ๐ฅ
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Oh- Iโve had this account for half of my life half of my life- 14 years on this app with so much of my soul on blast
the older i get the more i process how this account took care of me in my darkest times iโm also processing how much iโve used this account to make my hurt feel bigger and to sink into my pain we ALL deserve more than our disordersโฆ iโve never been more sure before
i am so miserable i just want to relapse so badly. i just. idk. itโs hard.
canโt bring myself to use this app despite the comfort this account has brought me. my friends are starving and one missing paycheck away from living on the street. the inequity this man promotes i justโฆ.. sigh
this is not a judgement, but sometimes i forget just how disordered the disorder(s) get until i pop back on here. iโm not gonna lie, iโm scared of this relapse and how out of control it feels. i literally do not want treatment ๐
it breaks my heart that i canโt seem to delete/stop adding to my unalive playlist. i donโt think iโll ever use it, but that voice in the back of my head says โjust in caseโ. i wish i could fully let it all go. i wish i wasnโt struggling with my mental health as an adult.
please donโt spend your whole life shrinking your body for yourself and others; thereโs more to life.
you donโt exist to spend your life learning how to take up less space; thereโs more than enough space for all the stars to shine
you deserve better than this eating disorder youโre caught in; you deserve a life beyond obsession over food
i just. i donโt need it anymore. iโm coping better. iโm doing better. i want to be better. i donโt want to assume iโm gonna relapse and keep this โjust in caseโ.
iโve had this account 10 years and i think it might be coming to a close here soon
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